Today has been a lovely day. I woke up very well rested, with zero plans, or anything that I had to do today.

They called Gary into work this morning and asked if he could work today and tomorrow. We talked about it a little bit and then I encouraged him to go. It’s double time today because it’s Sunday and time and a half tomorrow because it’s a holiday. He’s already in overtime so it’s kind of hard to pass that up. But I love that he would have if I had asked him to.

They don’t have too many guys forfeit their Sundays due to the double time. The way the schedules work, everyone works two Sundays a month so that everyone gets that little bonus money. So when they ask, it’s a good indication that someone’s really sick or really needs the day off. We had a great couple of days with Gage so all is good.

I spent a lot of the afternoon playing with paint swatches. I made a deal with Gary that I would start looking at houses and taking it a little more seriously, but there were some projects around here that I really wanted to do first and that includes touching up and repainting a few rooms and painting the baseboards and putting new baseboards around my tub.

He agreed. I just think it’s silly to go look at houses and then take the chance of falling in love with something and feel like our house is not ready to sell. I know that he’s eager because we bought this house in such a terrible market and interest rates are really going down. I know that this is probably a good time, but we aren’t ready right this second. I really, really want to stay here another year until Gage is done with 8th grade.

I think we’re both hearing each other, he just wants to look, just in case the right thing came along, and I’ll agree to that, but I just want to get projects done in the meantime that I know need to get done. I know one thing, it would have to be the absolute perfect home to make me consider moving before Gage goes to high school.

He knows that. But yes, I’ll look if he’ll help me tackle all these other things.

I am glad that interest rates are going down but at the same time it’s a scary economy. It makes me nervous to bite off a bigger mortgage than we already have now. It looks fine on paper, but I think realistically. I don’t trust what’s gonna happen in the next few years. I think his point is “well if something that bad happens then we probably wouldn’t make it here either”. He may be right about that, but it still makes me wanna pump the brakes a little bit. He says if we wait for the world to be perfect we’ll never do anything.

I’m not waiting for anything to be perfect. I just don’t want to have to pull my son out of a school that he really loves in his last year there.

The bad thing is that’s gonna happen to one of them. If we leave when he’s out of middle school, then Norah Harper will have to start a new school. I don’t know. I really don’t know.

I’m just gonna trust God to put us where he wants us. I trust that we will know what to do when the time comes.

I’ve lived a lot of my life like that, and I don’t have that many complaints about putting my faith in him. It’s when I’m thinking with my own head that I usually find myself in trouble.

Anyway.. lots of things to consider. That’s just life- it never stops changing.

I remember the day we moved in this house saying I’m never moving again! This is gonna be my house forever. Gary told me then I was crazy that there was no way this would be our forever home and I thought he would change his mind. He was right- we outgrew it really fast.

I sometimes think about what we would’ve done if we had stayed in Land O Lakes, that house seemed really big because it had high ceilings, but it was quite a bit less square feet than this house. Gage’s room feels so tiny now that he’s getting so big. Harper’s is beginning to feel that way too. We are certainly running out of closet and storage space.

The one thing that makes me happy when I think about moving again is knowing that the kids will be on board this time and it won’t seem like we are because of a crisis.

It won’t be to a different state or a different town, Gary won’t be starting a new career.. It can be a smooth transition. We won’t be stuck staying in an Airbnb or rent a house for four or five months to look for houses. Or at least I hope not. I don’t ever wanna do that again.

And this time… we are hiring movers. Period. My back and his shoulder- no way.

Anyway, I don’t know why I’m talking about all this. I guess it’s really the only thing on my mind today. I can see it really becoming important to Gary so I have to take that in consideration. He would never make me do something that I don’t want to do, but there have been very few times in our marriage where I felt that he was this strongly opinionated about something. He really wants to move a little further out to the country and he really wants the kids to have more space. He says he works too hard and too much to not be able to have that. I cannot disagree with him. I want him to have his baby goats. lol

Alright, I’m off to play Mario Kart with my kiddos. I got out of it yesterday, but they’re holding me to it. 🙄🤪

I doubt anybody actually stuck around long enough to read this and I don’t blame you but if you did, thanks for listening to me ramble on. Hah! It’s cathartic just to let out what’s going on in our mind sometimes. It just gets things out of our system.

I feel better already 🙂