Today I was kinda feeling blue. I guess hearing that news from Jenn really upset me more than I realized.

A few months ago when my fb got deleted I obviously wasn’t able to just add my Mom & Brother as friends easily, and I couldn’t see their photos and pages. So today I was FINALLY able to get into their accounts and add them as my friends again so I couldn’t have access to their photos. I had to find Jay’s phone and I couldn’t remember his password, and Alan had to find my Moms. It was very emotional and I can’t explain why .

All the messages between Jay and I are gone now. All the funny things and little conversations between us on my kids photos and his photos- just gone. That makes me kinda sad bc the kids won’t ever be able to read them, but it wasn’t anything that important I guess.

It just put me in a mood. I was kind of a grump, but I’m good now.. Gary took me to Panera for Soup and Chicken Salad , so I was immediately better. 😄😄😄

Grief is weird. Life is weird. But it’s also really, really good.

I got to come home and put on my very favorite pajamas, climb into a warm bed and snuggle my handsome man, the two cutest kids and the sweetest dogs ever. I am incredibly blessed!!

I really am so grateful.

Anyway, I am up late but headed to bed. Gage finally got a haircut this evening at a place in Pace (by Panera) that was open late, so I am up late washing a load of clothes. He has a school dance tomorrow and he texted me at 11pm to tell me the jeans wants to wear are dirty. 🫣🤪 And yes I know 11 is late but school starts at 9:40. He sleeps in until 8:20 most mornings.

So… I’m getting his things ready. I love that boy. He was so sweet this afternoon. Like I said, I was being kinda grumpy and he could sense it, so he asked me if I was ok. I told him I was, but that I had a lot on my mind. He hugged me so tight. It made me tear up. He never asked me what was wrong, he just hugged me. That’s all I needed. ❤️

Thankful for kind children. Thankful to have loved people so deeply in my life, that I will forever feel the void.

That’s a gift too. 🙏🏼