Well… it’s very sad when you can’t help someone that you know needs help.

I’ve had a friend that has really struggled with alcoholism for the last few years.

I’ve tried so hard to encourage her, and help her.

I’m tired though. I really am. I’ve worked hard to get rid of those habits in my life and it feels unfair that I always end up nursing her through these VERY dark moments.

She went on a rampage on my Instagram the other night because she saw me post after she called me a few times and I didn’t answer.

I had to block her and put my profile on private and block her phone number. She doesn’t even recall any of it, but I’m just over it.

I don’t want to be a hypocrite, because I know what it’s like to drink too much, but this has been in a dark place for a while and it’s not healthy for me either.

It really pisses Gary off when she does the calling over and over and he’s wanted me to sever this friendship for a while. He thinks it’s extremely insensitive for her to call me when she’s drinking, knowing that I’m sober now.

I agree. I just wanted so badly to help her. I’m not equipped. Her issues are very deep. The worst thing is to give up on an addict, but she needs her family to intervene..There’s nothing I can do for her at this point except pray for her.

It’s just a bad situation bc our kids talk to each other everyday and I love those kids. Something has to give though. I’m starting to feel like I’m enabling her when I give her a place to call when she’s like that. Her husband and her fight the whole time, and she ends up calling me bc he’s angry she’s drinking. I almost feel like I’m making it harder for him to give her tough love.

Anyway, it’s time to give the friendship a break. I hope and pray she gets to a place she’s really ready to give it up.

I also really hope I’m doing the right thing. I’ve prayed about it a lot, and I feel confident in doing it… I just wish I did t have to. I wish I could fix her.